the past two nights, all weekend actually, I didn’t sleep at night. It’s been awhile since I’ve had long sleepless nights. Especially two in a row. Although I did get quite a lot of writing done, I actually got to a word count of 20,000! I’m participating my second year in NANOWRIMO, I need to reach 50,000 words in a couple of days. I’m not giving up- and to all those out there in the same predicament as me DONT GIVE UP KEEP WRITING KEEP GOING KEEP DREAMING YOU GOT THIS-



I’ve learnt with my past that honesty is important. I can see how ten years can go by so very very quickly. This year, 2016, has been the first year I have not lied (I’m sure white lies don’t count). I’ve been honest with myself, and the people around me, it feels good. I feel genuine, like a real person. 

I’ve also done some immense healing. Still healing now, but I’m starting to see healing is an every day mission. That’s ok though, I have people around me that support and love me for who I am-who forgave me for who I was in the past. 

Now I’m bringing my honesty into my art, I feel this is my way to complete freedom.


Creative ideas for preparation and performance, the book I’m currently reading. 

So far it’s pretty good. It’s good to go back to the basics. 

Reading, writing and telling stories, fiction or not, is something most of us do everyday. Sometimes-without even thinking about it.  

Maybe you should sit down and go back to your basics, whatever they might be. Feels good to sit down and refresh something you already know. Also, I suggest reading a book, your brain will thank you.


I’m just going to free write because I’m trying to catch up on my nanowrimo goals- it’s really hard to keep up. 

I’m currently eating supper and The Big Bang Theory is playing in the background. I wrote and read all day at work today, and my brain is tired now. 

I did yoga, that felt nice, I even think I fell into some type of meditative state. Breathing in and out sounds incredibly simple-it’s a lie. 

Breathing feels good, when you do it right.

I never realized how much I wasn’t breathing. Seriously, look it up, try it out- especially if you have some sort of mental illness. Either way, that oxygen will end up feeling like a drug trust me.

Short thoughts on DIY book publishing

I’ve always dreamt of publishing my own book. Even better, that it gets transformed into its very own movie or TV series. It is my dream, well one of them anyways. 

I’ve been dreaming for years, now it’s time to get moving.

I’m currently participating in NANOWRIMO 2016. It’s basically trying to reach a word goal count of 50,000 in a month (November). I tried last year and never reached the goal. Now I’m trying again, only 9 days left and I’m at 6,000 words so far (still trying to win).

I’ve decided to publish a poetry book. Although it started as a science fiction, I might get back to it-but my little heart tells me poetry is my gendra these days. 

I’ve learnt quite a few things doing some quick research. 

1. Don’t stress or get overwhelmed by the steps needed to reach your goal

2. Be patient and have fun 

3. Purchase your own ISBN 

4. Use social media to get your name out there 

5. Get your book edited 

6. Have a catchy title and great book cover 

7. Use Amazon and start with an e-book 

I’m sure there’s a million other things I can add to this list. Right now, this is my goal. 

GOODLUCK to all nanowrimo participants and to all those self publishing their own book at the moment!